JAKE BREAKS AND LONG HAULS

my life has officially become boring.
my mr right has started driving long hauls and it sucks
major.

he drives all day long and the only communication i get is a in and out phone call at 10 at  night that usually gets cut off before the "i love you's"
luckily right now he is home every weekend.
but starting in about a month or less i will only see him once every 2 weeks.

im totally venting here and i dont even care.

i LOVE my boyfriend can i just tell ya'll that?
he is my world and normally we see each other pretty much everyday.
he is my bestfriend.
and now i am lonely.

im super proud of him for doing this because he knows he has to put in the hard time right now (6 months) and then he will have it much easier. things will get back to normal and we can move forward.

if anyone has any advice,
im now excepting..

i want to lay in my new memory foam bed all day listening to Santigold

the end.

STUMBLED UPON

here are a few videos i have found lately i cant get enough

LAKE POWELL

its a beautiful time.

i am in LOVE with 

this

song.

period.

DEFEATED

the last few days have been trying and frustrating. easy and rewarding. all at the same time. im emotionally drained and not any closer to the end than when i started.

im not very good at leaning on anyone for advice and guidance and when i do it hasn't seemed to make any sort of difference, but now i have decided to take serious action. its time that i stand up for what is important for me and stop dancing around that fact any longer. im not a baby anymore and it just, well, time.

the gloves are off and the big girl panties are on. eat your heart out

THINGS THAT MAKE ME SMILE

it has been a rough last couple weeks at work. oh and since i havent wrote about it on here i got a new job last month working at UCCU (utah community credit union) any of you that have ever worked as a teller know that it can be difficult and stressful at times. but i do really enjoy it. and today, being the day after a holiday we got slammed and i was working drive through. im use to that stress by now. i wasnt having that rough of a day but then my day was made even better by a complete stranger. a young man named Brandon.

what a sweetheart! he waited patiently while i had to help a needy member that took far to long and he still was pleasant and nice. so thank you brandon! and no, YOU are the best.