The day has come ladies and gents,
im going to attempt to start a new blog..
a marriage blog!
it wont be up for a little bit ( i think)
but if anyone is at all intrigued by our future you are more than welcome to keep reading.
i promise to do better
to learn more about how to blog
make it more exciting to look at and read.
well i thought that i should probably write about it since i have been talking about it for ever! so yes if you havent heard i am now engaged to charles. and i am so excited!!
here is the story.
well saturday (December 1st) we were talking about the future like we always so and i was going on and on about how i just wished that it could happen soon, and he told me that financially we just werent ready and we needed to just be patient and i just cried and cried and cried oh it was not pretty at all.
then on monday (December 3rd) i was at work and we were suppose to be going to the movies after. i was working the drive up and i heard Kaylie "Sha, Charles wants to say hi" so i turn around to wave and i see Sid (his little sister) with her phone out and my heart jumped! i whipped around and i knew something was up so i hurry and helped the member at the drive and came around to the front. he asked if he could get a hug, so as calmly as i possibly could i went to walk out to the lobby and before i could make it 2 steps out the door there he was. he handed me a check and told me he needed me to deposit it for him. i looked down and it read "will you marry me" and he was on one knee, ring in hand and i just cried! here was the man that i love with all my heart and soul and it was FINALLY happening!!
he later told me the details and i guess he had it all planned for about a week and so when i was bawling about having to wait he was just wanting to spill the beans and tell me that everything was going to be ok in just a couple days. im so glad he didnt spoil the surprise.
i am so grateful for the life that i have,
it isnt perfect all the time, and sometimes i just want to scream and just walk away from it all but i know that i have it good and i need to be more happy and thankful for it all.
im lucky to have..
my unbelievable family that have shaped me into the woman that i am here today.
my loving boyfriend who deals with me even on my days when i am ungrateful and just not so perfect,
my job, even though this is probably the biggest challenge, without it i would be no where near where i am today so it does indeed deserve a bit of thanks.
i am also very thankful to my past, friends that i thought would always be there for me but instead taught me that the world is not always generous and how to learn when to trust and that i need to be more careful with my heart and also to learn how to forgive.
i have grown so much as a person (i feel anyways) i don't feel like a high school teeny bopper anymore, my life has purpose and its going somewhere important. i have people who motivate me and help me see what i can become.
every day i get up see that i am settling more and more in to myself and i can see the progress in myself, which has been the hardest thing for me was trying to figure out who i REALLY am. some days i do feel totally alone because i dont have the privilege of being with Charles every day, but soon that will change. when that does happen, i will be the happiest girl in the whole world and then my life will really start to change and i cannot wait!
i love life and im trying to embrace it more, but im grateful for those who give me the support on my bad days.
well after taking a much needed day off of work to prepare me for next week, i can conclude that it only made me want to procrastinate further.
dont get me wrong my job actually has grown on me and i am now use to grouchy people taking their financial frustrations out on me. but i am just so ready to start my life with my Charles. like i can not even handle it people!!
Note: things are going to get mushy... probably for a while because i have decided to start writing in hopes that it will help me stay more sain.
back to the mush. i sit all day and just think about my ring (yes we have picked it out) and how badly i wish it was on my finger. at work i practice signing my name like im a love struck school girl. (ShaLee Olsen just looks so great) i didnt really imagine that i would be like this,, hard to explain. i always imagined when i would fall in love we would be engaged and married and have no problems. i see girls my age getting married and i think "wow they got it so easy" but im sure im not the only person out there in this predicament. no i am not bagging on Charles at all, if he could propose tonight he would, but we just have a few things that have to be in place before we can make any definite plans.
so im just waiting.....
not very patiently.
im trying to be better because i know that he gets annoyed with my constant nagging about the future.
he is doing his best and he is absolutely amazing for it, i couldn't ask for a better guy. i love him so much i just cant wait for the day that we get to say i do. everyone cross their fingers (and toes)