im not really sure why im writing right now i have nothing important or necessarily interesting to say. but the night is becoming long and who are we kidding, this is about the only time that i really decide to write at all. so lets try to come up with something shall we??

so i have been trying to figure out what i should do after i am done with nail school which by the way is only like 3  months away... and my charming boyfriend tried talking me into heading back up to snow college hahhaha sorry babes that wont be happening. with the lack of desire and money its just not what this gal will be doing. but i need to do something, i need to get serious with my decisions. so first things first, i must find a job. at first i tried only going for the appealing jobs that would pay me nicely, then this soon became very apparent that no one was going to hire me when im at school from noon to five every day. so now im just going for anything that will accept my application and call me back. and yet i have zero to show for this. so, still no car, still a couple grand in school dept, and the fear of knowing i have to pay future school expenses myself. because i have now decided exactly what i will be doing after nails. im going to go into aesthetics. im super excited and want to start right away... no money. so yes this is my current problem. if anyone has any kind of knowledge of a job for this pathetic girl please just let me know, i would be so appreciative.

well this weekend i get to go down to snow college for a great reason!! not only to see my man but also to see the man standing next to him.    

this is one of my best friends Benjamin Vasquez, and he has chosen to get baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints on March third. im so unbelievably excited for him!! it hasnt been an easy road but he has finally gotten here and i couldnt be more proud. its going to be a great weekend thats for sure!  

UNTITLED.

why do things never go as planned?
what is the point of feeling sad?
why do we argue?
why does it hurt so bad?
sometimes i wish that i lived on an island with population me.

SIMPLE DELIGHTS

its been a good day

YET AGAIN

i think these late nights of no sleep are the only time that any blogging gets done.
im really boring sorry.
but lucky for me im not a high school student that has to get up at six thirty everyday, instead now class starts at twelve thirty so im free to sleep in a bit longer than necessary.
i think my problem lately is dealing with being without my man is a lot more difficult than i originally planned.
no, not entirely impossible.
but very hard and trying on my emotions.
this last weekend while walking around birthday shopping for one another he quietly asked if i would like to go look at some rings...... insert giant smile here.... i tried to play it cool and say that i only did if he wanted to. we walked in and needless to say i walked out very happy and sad that i couldnt keep the beauty on my finger. maybe someday this will happen.
dont worry im not expecting that day to be anytime soon but it sure was fun to pretend.

oh and also tonight i found out that i will be a aunt again so not only am i marriage hungry, but also baby starving. the life of a girl :)

PS i am getting a new camera for my birthday on sunday and so i will soon be able to fill my blog with photos once again!

TOSSED LIKE A SALAD

i hate nights where all you do is toss and turn endlessly hoping that you will be able to somehow figure out a way to become slightly tired enough to close your eyes and fall asleep. i have been doing this for a few hours now and i have now surrendered to my chaotic mind and tried to just do anything but try to sleep.

i just have so much stuff on my mind. i think about nails all the time and stress about state boards even though they are months away, i stress about not being able to create the perfect smile on my acrylics and allison has already perfected this in a matter of days. im worried about finding a job i have been trying so hard but cant seem to snag one its very frustrating when you constantly feel the weight of student debt and the need to buy a new car so i dont have to depend on my parents for transportation as well as everything else in my life at the moment. i miss my boyfriend A LOT like im kinda going insane! we have so many plans in the future and i hate only being able to sit and think about them. i want to take action now!

sigh.... maybe i'll try to give this sleep thing one more try.

crap! i dont have a key for the car in the morning....