TOSSED LIKE A SALAD

i hate nights where all you do is toss and turn endlessly hoping that you will be able to somehow figure out a way to become slightly tired enough to close your eyes and fall asleep. i have been doing this for a few hours now and i have now surrendered to my chaotic mind and tried to just do anything but try to sleep.

i just have so much stuff on my mind. i think about nails all the time and stress about state boards even though they are months away, i stress about not being able to create the perfect smile on my acrylics and allison has already perfected this in a matter of days. im worried about finding a job i have been trying so hard but cant seem to snag one its very frustrating when you constantly feel the weight of student debt and the need to buy a new car so i dont have to depend on my parents for transportation as well as everything else in my life at the moment. i miss my boyfriend A LOT like im kinda going insane! we have so many plans in the future and i hate only being able to sit and think about them. i want to take action now!

sigh.... maybe i'll try to give this sleep thing one more try.

crap! i dont have a key for the car in the morning....