well i thought that i should probably write about it since i have been talking about it for ever! so yes if you havent heard i am now engaged to charles. and i am so excited!!
here is the story.
well saturday (December 1st) we were talking about the future like we always so and i was going on and on about how i just wished that it could happen soon, and he told me that financially we just werent ready and we needed to just be patient and i just cried and cried and cried oh it was not pretty at all.
then on monday (December 3rd) i was at work and we were suppose to be going to the movies after. i was working the drive up and i heard Kaylie "Sha, Charles wants to say hi" so i turn around to wave and i see Sid (his little sister) with her phone out and my heart jumped! i whipped around and i knew something was up so i hurry and helped the member at the drive and came around to the front. he asked if he could get a hug, so as calmly as i possibly could i went to walk out to the lobby and before i could make it 2 steps out the door there he was. he handed me a check and told me he needed me to deposit it for him. i looked down and it read "will you marry me" and he was on one knee, ring in hand and i just cried! here was the man that i love with all my heart and soul and it was FINALLY happening!!
he later told me the details and i guess he had it all planned for about a week and so when i was bawling about having to wait he was just wanting to spill the beans and tell me that everything was going to be ok in just a couple days. im so glad he didnt spoil the surprise.
IM SO HAPPY IM GOING TO BE AN OLSEN!!
THANKS, GIVING.
i am so grateful for the life that i have,
it isnt perfect all the time, and sometimes i just want to scream and just walk away from it all but i know that i have it good and i need to be more happy and thankful for it all.
im lucky to have..
my unbelievable family that have shaped me into the woman that i am here today.
my loving boyfriend who deals with me even on my days when i am ungrateful and just not so perfect,
my job, even though this is probably the biggest challenge, without it i would be no where near where i am today so it does indeed deserve a bit of thanks.
i am also very thankful to my past, friends that i thought would always be there for me but instead taught me that the world is not always generous and how to learn when to trust and that i need to be more careful with my heart and also to learn how to forgive.
i have grown so much as a person (i feel anyways) i don't feel like a high school teeny bopper anymore, my life has purpose and its going somewhere important. i have people who motivate me and help me see what i can become.
every day i get up see that i am settling more and more in to myself and i can see the progress in myself, which has been the hardest thing for me was trying to figure out who i REALLY am. some days i do feel totally alone because i dont have the privilege of being with Charles every day, but soon that will change. when that does happen, i will be the happiest girl in the whole world and then my life will really start to change and i cannot wait!
i love life and im trying to embrace it more, but im grateful for those who give me the support on my bad days.
what are you thankful for??
it isnt perfect all the time, and sometimes i just want to scream and just walk away from it all but i know that i have it good and i need to be more happy and thankful for it all.
im lucky to have..
my unbelievable family that have shaped me into the woman that i am here today.
my loving boyfriend who deals with me even on my days when i am ungrateful and just not so perfect,
my job, even though this is probably the biggest challenge, without it i would be no where near where i am today so it does indeed deserve a bit of thanks.
i am also very thankful to my past, friends that i thought would always be there for me but instead taught me that the world is not always generous and how to learn when to trust and that i need to be more careful with my heart and also to learn how to forgive.
i have grown so much as a person (i feel anyways) i don't feel like a high school teeny bopper anymore, my life has purpose and its going somewhere important. i have people who motivate me and help me see what i can become.
every day i get up see that i am settling more and more in to myself and i can see the progress in myself, which has been the hardest thing for me was trying to figure out who i REALLY am. some days i do feel totally alone because i dont have the privilege of being with Charles every day, but soon that will change. when that does happen, i will be the happiest girl in the whole world and then my life will really start to change and i cannot wait!
i love life and im trying to embrace it more, but im grateful for those who give me the support on my bad days.
what are you thankful for??
PALM TO FOREHEAD..
well after taking a much needed day off of work to prepare me for next week, i can conclude that it only made me want to procrastinate further.
dont get me wrong my job actually has grown on me and i am now use to grouchy people taking their financial frustrations out on me. but i am just so ready to start my life with my Charles. like i can not even handle it people!!
Note: things are going to get mushy... probably for a while because i have decided to start writing in hopes that it will help me stay more sain.
back to the mush. i sit all day and just think about my ring (yes we have picked it out) and how badly i wish it was on my finger. at work i practice signing my name like im a love struck school girl. (ShaLee Olsen just looks so great) i didnt really imagine that i would be like this,, hard to explain. i always imagined when i would fall in love we would be engaged and married and have no problems. i see girls my age getting married and i think "wow they got it so easy" but im sure im not the only person out there in this predicament. no i am not bagging on Charles at all, if he could propose tonight he would, but we just have a few things that have to be in place before we can make any definite plans.
so im just waiting.....
not very patiently.
im trying to be better because i know that he gets annoyed with my constant nagging about the future.
he is doing his best and he is absolutely amazing for it, i couldn't ask for a better guy. i love him so much i just cant wait for the day that we get to say i do. everyone cross their fingers (and toes)
dont get me wrong my job actually has grown on me and i am now use to grouchy people taking their financial frustrations out on me. but i am just so ready to start my life with my Charles. like i can not even handle it people!!
Note: things are going to get mushy... probably for a while because i have decided to start writing in hopes that it will help me stay more sain.
back to the mush. i sit all day and just think about my ring (yes we have picked it out) and how badly i wish it was on my finger. at work i practice signing my name like im a love struck school girl. (ShaLee Olsen just looks so great) i didnt really imagine that i would be like this,, hard to explain. i always imagined when i would fall in love we would be engaged and married and have no problems. i see girls my age getting married and i think "wow they got it so easy" but im sure im not the only person out there in this predicament. no i am not bagging on Charles at all, if he could propose tonight he would, but we just have a few things that have to be in place before we can make any definite plans.
so im just waiting.....
not very patiently.
im trying to be better because i know that he gets annoyed with my constant nagging about the future.
he is doing his best and he is absolutely amazing for it, i couldn't ask for a better guy. i love him so much i just cant wait for the day that we get to say i do. everyone cross their fingers (and toes)
HOLY JUDAS!
i am considering the crazy room because i just wrote that whole stupid post about useless nothing when i actually had something important to write about!
meet the newest ball of cuteness!!
miss Hallee Renne Hansen
she is so precious!!
we all love her so much and are so excited or Corey and Britt
they will be such great parents
OOPS
when your boyfriend notices that your blog has been neglected than you know you have a problem.
sorry people but i just have a very boring life now-a-days.
well lets see what i can write about.
i have bought i simple cute black high low skirt that im still not sure if i can pull off,
also bought new 1500 TC sheets (grey) for my marital king size bed to try and make it more welcoming since i sleep in it alone still.
im hoping that charles will get this new job so i can finally talk about it, i believe you are safe to talk about hopes and dreams but as soon as you put it into the cyber world, you are screwed..
if it does happen i will surely be writing about it.
currently i am in the process of cleaning out my liver and colon so i can lose so much hated weight.
i have lots of things that are much more interesting to talk about but in fear of my previous comment, i just don't want to jinx anything so until things become more "for sure" in my future this will have to do.
sorry.
sorry people but i just have a very boring life now-a-days.
well lets see what i can write about.
i have bought i simple cute black high low skirt that im still not sure if i can pull off,
also bought new 1500 TC sheets (grey) for my marital king size bed to try and make it more welcoming since i sleep in it alone still.
im hoping that charles will get this new job so i can finally talk about it, i believe you are safe to talk about hopes and dreams but as soon as you put it into the cyber world, you are screwed..
if it does happen i will surely be writing about it.
currently i am in the process of cleaning out my liver and colon so i can lose so much hated weight.
i have lots of things that are much more interesting to talk about but in fear of my previous comment, i just don't want to jinx anything so until things become more "for sure" in my future this will have to do.
sorry.
JAKE BREAKS AND LONG HAULS
my life has officially become boring.
my mr right has started driving long hauls and it sucks
major.
he drives all day long and the only communication i get is a in and out phone call at 10 at night that usually gets cut off before the "i love you's"
luckily right now he is home every weekend.
but starting in about a month or less i will only see him once every 2 weeks.
im totally venting here and i dont even care.
i LOVE my boyfriend can i just tell ya'll that?
he is my world and normally we see each other pretty much everyday.
he is my bestfriend.
and now i am lonely.
im super proud of him for doing this because he knows he has to put in the hard time right now (6 months) and then he will have it much easier. things will get back to normal and we can move forward.
if anyone has any advice,
im now excepting..
my mr right has started driving long hauls and it sucks
major.
he drives all day long and the only communication i get is a in and out phone call at 10 at night that usually gets cut off before the "i love you's"
luckily right now he is home every weekend.
but starting in about a month or less i will only see him once every 2 weeks.
im totally venting here and i dont even care.
i LOVE my boyfriend can i just tell ya'll that?
he is my world and normally we see each other pretty much everyday.
he is my bestfriend.
and now i am lonely.
im super proud of him for doing this because he knows he has to put in the hard time right now (6 months) and then he will have it much easier. things will get back to normal and we can move forward.
if anyone has any advice,
im now excepting..
DEFEATED
the last few days have been trying and frustrating. easy and rewarding. all at the same time. im emotionally drained and not any closer to the end than when i started.
im not very good at leaning on anyone for advice and guidance and when i do it hasn't seemed to make any sort of difference, but now i have decided to take serious action. its time that i stand up for what is important for me and stop dancing around that fact any longer. im not a baby anymore and it just, well, time.
the gloves are off and the big girl panties are on. eat your heart out
im not very good at leaning on anyone for advice and guidance and when i do it hasn't seemed to make any sort of difference, but now i have decided to take serious action. its time that i stand up for what is important for me and stop dancing around that fact any longer. im not a baby anymore and it just, well, time.
the gloves are off and the big girl panties are on. eat your heart out
THINGS THAT MAKE ME SMILE
it has been a rough last couple weeks at work. oh and since i havent wrote about it on here i got a new job last month working at UCCU (utah community credit union) any of you that have ever worked as a teller know that it can be difficult and stressful at times. but i do really enjoy it. and today, being the day after a holiday we got slammed and i was working drive through. im use to that stress by now. i wasnt having that rough of a day but then my day was made even better by a complete stranger. a young man named Brandon.
what a sweetheart! he waited patiently while i had to help a needy member that took far to long and he still was pleasant and nice. so thank you brandon! and no, YOU are the best.
what a sweetheart! he waited patiently while i had to help a needy member that took far to long and he still was pleasant and nice. so thank you brandon! and no, YOU are the best.
MY APOLOGIES
i know im not perfect and i dont claim to be, but im trying even harder than i was yesterday, and the day before.
life is at a crazy point.
im trying to gain the respect of adults as one myself.
trying to finish school and start a new one.
have a job while trying to find another one.
paying bills that i know i dont have the money in my account for.
and make a relationship survive the treacherous waters we keep putting it in.
but this is also a very exciting time, filled with good stuff too.
its just easier to find the bad in things.
after all, im only human.
but even though it may contradict a previous (deleted) post, i love my boyfriend so much and i am so grateful for him and everything he does. i know its not easy to deal with my emotions some times but i am working very hard to learn how to do that. i know that things i have said cant be taken back but i hope to learn from my mistakes.
dont count us out just yet.
life is at a crazy point.
im trying to gain the respect of adults as one myself.
trying to finish school and start a new one.
have a job while trying to find another one.
paying bills that i know i dont have the money in my account for.
and make a relationship survive the treacherous waters we keep putting it in.
but this is also a very exciting time, filled with good stuff too.
its just easier to find the bad in things.
after all, im only human.
but even though it may contradict a previous (deleted) post, i love my boyfriend so much and i am so grateful for him and everything he does. i know its not easy to deal with my emotions some times but i am working very hard to learn how to do that. i know that things i have said cant be taken back but i hope to learn from my mistakes.
dont count us out just yet.
INSPIRATION
well today has been a pretty great day to say the least.
great church meetings.
great food.
great movies.
now im going to share a secret here, ready?
i have had a guitar since i was 12.
i never really learned to play very good.
but today i watched a hidden movie on netflix and this song just touched something that i thought was lost.
i craved to play some new music.
so, i ran to my room.
i pulled out my dusty guitar.
tuned her up.
and now im attempting to learn my first real song.
wish me luck.
ps. you'll be real cool in my book if you can guess this movie ;)
great church meetings.
great food.
great movies.
now im going to share a secret here, ready?
i have had a guitar since i was 12.
i never really learned to play very good.
but today i watched a hidden movie on netflix and this song just touched something that i thought was lost.
i craved to play some new music.
so, i ran to my room.
i pulled out my dusty guitar.
tuned her up.
and now im attempting to learn my first real song.
wish me luck.
ps. you'll be real cool in my book if you can guess this movie ;)
I NEEDED A LAUGH
a while ago i was talking to my dear friend Sydnee about gilmore girls (of coarse) and i was talking about this particular scene.
(sorry about the poor quality, this is all i could find)
SWEET TOOTH MONSTER
i will just tell ya i dont normally eat sweet things, it was the last thing i use to ever want. give me something salty and fried, cheesy and greasy, but never a candy bar. so it must just be the rough week i have been having because..
i have eaten ice cream everyday this week.
Sunday: apple crumb bars and banana split ice cream
Monday: vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce, bananas and peanut butter.
Tuesday: frozen hot chocolate
Wednesday: vanilla ice cream with chocolate sauce and peanut butter. hint: warm up the peanut butter, you will die!
i have to stop this before it becomes a huge problem leading to a larger booty.
PS who is jumping out of their skin for the new salt city mall?? THIS GIRL!
LOVE MY LOVER
it was so great getting a few extra days to spend with Charles. i love him more and more everyday. i cant wait till summer so i can spend more of my time with this amazing man. i love him.
BAPTISM
today was such a great day.
its awesome to see such a great friend find the light of the gospel.
well done Ben.
im not really sure why im writing right now i have nothing important or necessarily interesting to say. but the night is becoming long and who are we kidding, this is about the only time that i really decide to write at all. so lets try to come up with something shall we??
so i have been trying to figure out what i should do after i am done with nail school which by the way is only like 3 months away... and my charming boyfriend tried talking me into heading back up to snow college hahhaha sorry babes that wont be happening. with the lack of desire and money its just not what this gal will be doing. but i need to do something, i need to get serious with my decisions. so first things first, i must find a job. at first i tried only going for the appealing jobs that would pay me nicely, then this soon became very apparent that no one was going to hire me when im at school from noon to five every day. so now im just going for anything that will accept my application and call me back. and yet i have zero to show for this. so, still no car, still a couple grand in school dept, and the fear of knowing i have to pay future school expenses myself. because i have now decided exactly what i will be doing after nails. im going to go into aesthetics. im super excited and want to start right away... no money. so yes this is my current problem. if anyone has any kind of knowledge of a job for this pathetic girl please just let me know, i would be so appreciative.
well this weekend i get to go down to snow college for a great reason!! not only to see my man but also to see the man standing next to him.
so i have been trying to figure out what i should do after i am done with nail school which by the way is only like 3 months away... and my charming boyfriend tried talking me into heading back up to snow college hahhaha sorry babes that wont be happening. with the lack of desire and money its just not what this gal will be doing. but i need to do something, i need to get serious with my decisions. so first things first, i must find a job. at first i tried only going for the appealing jobs that would pay me nicely, then this soon became very apparent that no one was going to hire me when im at school from noon to five every day. so now im just going for anything that will accept my application and call me back. and yet i have zero to show for this. so, still no car, still a couple grand in school dept, and the fear of knowing i have to pay future school expenses myself. because i have now decided exactly what i will be doing after nails. im going to go into aesthetics. im super excited and want to start right away... no money. so yes this is my current problem. if anyone has any kind of knowledge of a job for this pathetic girl please just let me know, i would be so appreciative.
well this weekend i get to go down to snow college for a great reason!! not only to see my man but also to see the man standing next to him.
this is one of my best friends Benjamin Vasquez, and he has chosen to get baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints on March third. im so unbelievably excited for him!! it hasnt been an easy road but he has finally gotten here and i couldnt be more proud. its going to be a great weekend thats for sure!
UNTITLED.
why do things never go as planned?
what is the point of feeling sad?
why do we argue?
why does it hurt so bad?
sometimes i wish that i lived on an island with population me.
what is the point of feeling sad?
why do we argue?
why does it hurt so bad?
sometimes i wish that i lived on an island with population me.
YET AGAIN
i think these late nights of no sleep are the only time that any blogging gets done.
im really boring sorry.
but lucky for me im not a high school student that has to get up at six thirty everyday, instead now class starts at twelve thirty so im free to sleep in a bit longer than necessary.
i think my problem lately is dealing with being without my man is a lot more difficult than i originally planned.
no, not entirely impossible.
but very hard and trying on my emotions.
this last weekend while walking around birthday shopping for one another he quietly asked if i would like to go look at some rings...... insert giant smile here.... i tried to play it cool and say that i only did if he wanted to. we walked in and needless to say i walked out very happy and sad that i couldnt keep the beauty on my finger. maybe someday this will happen.
dont worry im not expecting that day to be anytime soon but it sure was fun to pretend.
oh and also tonight i found out that i will be a aunt again so not only am i marriage hungry, but also baby starving. the life of a girl :)
PS i am getting a new camera for my birthday on sunday and so i will soon be able to fill my blog with photos once again!
im really boring sorry.
but lucky for me im not a high school student that has to get up at six thirty everyday, instead now class starts at twelve thirty so im free to sleep in a bit longer than necessary.
i think my problem lately is dealing with being without my man is a lot more difficult than i originally planned.
no, not entirely impossible.
but very hard and trying on my emotions.
this last weekend while walking around birthday shopping for one another he quietly asked if i would like to go look at some rings...... insert giant smile here.... i tried to play it cool and say that i only did if he wanted to. we walked in and needless to say i walked out very happy and sad that i couldnt keep the beauty on my finger. maybe someday this will happen.
dont worry im not expecting that day to be anytime soon but it sure was fun to pretend.
oh and also tonight i found out that i will be a aunt again so not only am i marriage hungry, but also baby starving. the life of a girl :)
PS i am getting a new camera for my birthday on sunday and so i will soon be able to fill my blog with photos once again!
TOSSED LIKE A SALAD
i hate nights where all you do is toss and turn endlessly hoping that you will be able to somehow figure out a way to become slightly tired enough to close your eyes and fall asleep. i have been doing this for a few hours now and i have now surrendered to my chaotic mind and tried to just do anything but try to sleep.
i just have so much stuff on my mind. i think about nails all the time and stress about state boards even though they are months away, i stress about not being able to create the perfect smile on my acrylics and allison has already perfected this in a matter of days. im worried about finding a job i have been trying so hard but cant seem to snag one its very frustrating when you constantly feel the weight of student debt and the need to buy a new car so i dont have to depend on my parents for transportation as well as everything else in my life at the moment. i miss my boyfriend A LOT like im kinda going insane! we have so many plans in the future and i hate only being able to sit and think about them. i want to take action now!
sigh.... maybe i'll try to give this sleep thing one more try.
crap! i dont have a key for the car in the morning....
i just have so much stuff on my mind. i think about nails all the time and stress about state boards even though they are months away, i stress about not being able to create the perfect smile on my acrylics and allison has already perfected this in a matter of days. im worried about finding a job i have been trying so hard but cant seem to snag one its very frustrating when you constantly feel the weight of student debt and the need to buy a new car so i dont have to depend on my parents for transportation as well as everything else in my life at the moment. i miss my boyfriend A LOT like im kinda going insane! we have so many plans in the future and i hate only being able to sit and think about them. i want to take action now!
sigh.... maybe i'll try to give this sleep thing one more try.
crap! i dont have a key for the car in the morning....
4 HOURS DOWN
today was the first day at MATC and it was really fun! im already learning a lot and i cant wait to learn even more. i got my kit and i just feel so important!! i cant wait to start getting to business. so i need models asap let me know if you want to come down im serious!
yeah, im feeling pretty legit :)
PURE
its not often anymore that you hear a song on the radio that you stop and think to your self, "self, this is amazing!" but today i came across The Civil Wars. and let me just tell you they are so unbelievably pure and real. they are the cutest married couple of artists (besides Blake and Miranda) but seriously, im not kidding here when you hear them live its like heaven itself has opened up and poured out angels to you. their voices were made to be together. im sure even when they fight with each other its harmonious.
SPREAD LIKE DANDELIONS
today is a day for many thoughts.
thoughts about life.
thoughts about friends,
love,
money,
health,
and many other things.
life is hard ya know? Shania said it best last year.
When somebody throws sticks and stonesAll they can break are your bonesAnd life's gonna kick you aroundThen kick you again when you're down
but why do we let people, who dont even matter, screw up our whole entire day? i mean think about this ok, so we break up with a boyfriend slash girlfriend, or lose a best friend and suddenly someone who you thought that you were so close with and wanted to have in your life forever, its suddenly like a war and it has become a game to find out who can make who feel worse about themselves. why the heck do we all participate in these stupid games that only bring us down.
but why do we let people, who dont even matter, screw up our whole entire day? i mean think about this ok, so we break up with a boyfriend slash girlfriend, or lose a best friend and suddenly someone who you thought that you were so close with and wanted to have in your life forever, its suddenly like a war and it has become a game to find out who can make who feel worse about themselves. why the heck do we all participate in these stupid games that only bring us down.
because we are human.
well ya know what? im done playing these worldly games!! i have a great family and a great boyfriend who are always there for me and at the end of the day thats all that really matters anyways. so who wants to join the movement with me? here is to a year of taking a stand on the higher road.
how can that face not make you smile!!
i love me some CHARLES
2012
well i would have to say this was a great year.
full of ups and downs and many unexpected turns.
its been a rocky last little while, but tonight i am happy to say that i am starting 2012 off happier then ever.
a lot of people arent very happy with some of my new changes,
but they can just build a bridge and get over it because i am very happy.
whats your new years' resolution?
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