ITS MY LIFE

if im not mistaken when i left heaven and got this body i was told that i could make my own decisions.

is this not true?

exactly, so i dont need the world to put their input on the decisions i make in MY LIFE.

so do me a favor and let me decide.

thank you.

oh merry CHRISTmas everyone =]

REFLECTION POOL

well tomorrow is my last day of college and it feels so surreal. i dont know what to think exactly so i thought i would just remember some good times and reflect on all things memorable.
-i met some amazing friends here, shyanne, alex, crista, curtis, weston, jade, nelson, travie, whitney and many others.
-went on many dennys runs in the wee hours of the morning and learned life lessons like how to make a straw worm and that friends come in all different styles.
-i learned i love to cook it doesnt matter what it is just let me do it!!
-i gained more respect for my mom and everything she does and so now i will help her at home making a better relationship.
-spent many hours around fires and talked about great things in life.
-i learned about love and heartbreak, how to read people in those aspects.
-lost a car
-learned some western swing, had a blast!
-made so mistakes i'll now have to pay for but learned from.
-i even learned so smart stuff too haha

i may not be coming back next semester but i will defiantly be back to visit and laugh with my friends. i will miss it but i will never regret my time here at snow its been life changing. im ready to go back home and keep progressing and put all of this knowledge to work in life.

we left tattoos on this town!!

FINALLY

sorry i tried to find the clip, but once again no such luck... but anyways my college experience was finally completed the other day as i was sitting in sociology learning about sports when he was talking about how girls and boys expectations in sports is viewed differently. then he showed us a clip and my heart raced when i saw what it was... FINALLY a gilmore girls clip was shown in a college class.i smiled the rest of the class.

ps the clip was when luke sponsors the girls soccer team and its after the game and they are sitting in the diner talking about how you know its a good game when "you have a little bit of O negative on your jersey"

COLOR ME CRAZY

well this post may come as a shock to some of you. and perhaps not.
so if you have read my blog or just talk to me really you know that i am up here in Ephraim going to school majoring in special education, and you will have noticed that things haven't been so smooth in this process for me. so i went home for thanksgiving break and i knew that i needed to get serious about registration for next year and all of that good stuff. it was stressful and scary and hard to say the least. this is how the process went.

1.decided on UVU, transferred credits, got accepted.
2. found out they have zero special ed program so i could do generals and then transfer to Utah State (didnt wanna do that)
3. decided to just take a few online classes for now at UVU so i could focus on less and do better (hopefully)
4. was still very leery to go back to school and was having a hard time with decision 3. so decided to look at a few more options.
5. looked at MATC's programs and this is where i found satisfaction.

so world, yours truly will be attending MATC to become a (drum roll please)

NAIL TECHNICIAN!

i am very excited about this new plan. but also dont worry i havent given up on my teaching dream it just isnt quite the same. i have just decided that i will work as a aid and then when i am done with the nail program witch takes about 4 months i can do nails on the side and so yes. im very happy.

oh and i will be doing it out of my house so if you would like to be a future client (i need them desperately) please comment and i will do them for you!

CAMPUS EMBARRASSMENT

 today ladies and gents i shall tell a tale of most embarrassment.

today as i was walking behind tatum (she never walks with me) home from math class everything was going great until.....
a huge wind storm picked up most unexpectedly
my olive color flowing shirt then proceeded to fly up reveling my chubby navel and moses knows what else!
i started to yell for tatum while trying to hold my shirt down and also trying to fling my head to toss away my hair from my eyes.... and the yelling and flipping of the head in turn made my gum shoot from my mouth making us laugh hysterically! all of this together im sure looked exactly like this.....

(except it was my SHIRT not skirt)

oh and did i mention all of this happened in front of my ex boyfriend and his friends.. sure showed him what he's missin.

ITS A FROWN KINDA DAY

if you are in a very great mood you probably should be pre-warned that this post is not going to make you any happier. but hey the reason for this blog is to show the life of a college student and im sure im not the only one out there that gets over whelmed and really sad about things sometimes.
i dont know if its something in the air. if its hard classes, or just wishing i was home for the holiday seasons. but one thing that i know for sure is that i am very sad lately about something. i have no motivation to go to class or do anything that has to do with school. im basically failing so i feel like their is no hope. my best friend doesnt do much listening but i've learned that i shouldnt expect much from people when i dont do much to help either. i miss my family so much its killing me! i just want to go home forever so i can cry to my mom and she will take me to lunch and tell me that everything will eventually work out. i miss my boyfriend and the way that he can always make me laugh. i miss my basement full of work out equipment keeping me motivated. more than anything i want to be back at home in my big bath tub in the dark thinking about nothing but how great the current song is thats playing. i miss ryan and how we just get each other and he makes me happy and all he has to do is be in the same room as me. i miss going to church with my family, i can admit i have slipped since moving out and i can feel that in my life.i want to spend my life reading great novels and making delicious food that makes me happy, movies that make me a better person, and music that makes me want to get out of bed and dance. i want close girlfriends to go shopping with and laughing about stupid nonsense. i just want to have a reason to get out of this uncomfortable bed and twirl for no reason. i just dont feel happy and i dont like feeling like this its not who i am. i want to be happy......

WHATS YOUR AGE AGAIN?

time is a funny thing isnt it? sometimes good sometimes bad. you use it to describe how long you have been a live how long you've been with the significant other. how long someone has been in the shower. it can be measured on a clock on a face or a calender. if you are like me you think of time in experiences, events. whether they are good or bad everyone has them, but the last couple days i have been thinking sincerely about my time and frankly... i dont know how happy i have been. i spend far too much time worrying about what people think of me  or rather what they dont think of me. many times i've thought of what i wish i was doing different or change. too much time spent with people who dont make me feel all that great about myself. done things that are a waste of my precious time. so if like me your time isnt spent in the best way that it should lets come together and change that. here's to moving on and not looking to the past and worrying about the future but focusing on the present time you could be glad to have.

JUAN PABLO

i had a very rough night last night and it pains me to write about it today.
all of you who know me well enough know that i have had one car since i could drive.
he was a 1994 blue rusty honda accord who i named juan.
he was my teenage companion.
i grew up in that car.
me and him did everything together, i have drove thousands of miles done dangerous things. had some of my biggest laughs and hardest cries with juan. he holds more memories than my bedroom. he wasnt the best car but he defiantly put up with a lot from me.

he's drove more miles than any car should for men in my life. he's spent many nights at the rodeo grounds comforting me and tate talk through the hard times. many cheese fry consumption's. the best sound system on this planet so yes many dance parties with juan. and also many great kisses.

juan may be gone but he will always be remembered. i will miss juan time. and his very foggy windows in the winter time. i love you juan pablo and thank you for the years of good times. i love you and i will miss you xoxox.

   (this is not actually the real juan, but i dont have a picture on this computer of him. but this is his twin.)

MAGIC BULLET

i want to make smoothies and delicious things everyday.

i need some money.

RESTLESS LOVE

its getting late and i cant sleep so what do i do?

well i am sick of studying.

my boyfriend goes to bed extremely early.

roommate is trying to sleep.

so.. i doodle a picture.

i have fallen in love with love again. i love this feeling

it becomes something that i always think about.

i find myself thinking of all things him

i advise that everyone fall in love at least once in their life.

and when you do hold on tight and never let go.

fight for what you want and don't settle for anything different.

 love is when you find yourself drawing hearts on all your papers 

ROTTEN

i drank rotten milk tonight (on accident) 

it was so disgusting, it ruined my night.

THE MIRACLE OF LIGHT

want to watch something amazing?

PERFECT

yes i am aloud to say perfect because that my dear friends is what he is.
he makes me laugh even when i dont want to.
he listens when i am upset.
he takes me to the movies.
he calls me when i am hours away.

now yes i know everyone is thinking "thats not that awesome guys do that all the time"
but no not to me.
he fits perfectly in my life, we talk about going fishing and hunting.
we take long rides up the canyon and we dont say much but it doesnt matter because we are both comfortable enough to sit in the silence together.
we go shooting and he admits that i can out shoot him (sometimes)
and most of all

he made me like roses =]

i think he is a keeper and i havent met anyone who disagrees.. man i sure do love my boyfriend. i love spencer..

TAGGED

well i didnt even know what this was until sydnee tagged me so i hope that i do this right.
i guess im suppose to tell 7 things about me (and they need to be clever)

1. im the only girl and the baby to 3 older brothers and i love every single second of it.

2. the greatest experience in my life was going to kenya last summer. it changed who i am as a person.

3. i go to college at snow. im majoring in special ed. its the greatest career known on this planet.

4. just looking at me you will get the wrong impression. i am a tree huger and a big country girl. but i love heels.

5. i always have to be right because 90% of the time i am ;)

6. i am a total homebody. my perfect day is to sit at home in my sweats read a book play the piano. make delicious food and watch a really girly movie.

7. i love all kids of music. rap when i work out or driving on a mission. indie and folk when i am feeling lovely. instrumental when i do homework and country every other time.

i have so much more to me that is just the basics. i would love to answer any other questions feel free to ask. dont be shy.

well i am suppose to tag someone i thing but.. i dont have any friends on here so. i guess i cant. i need more members!

smile its fall :)

STYE

I HAVE A STYE IN MY EYE,

IT HURTS A LOT.

CAN YOU SEE IT?

 ITS THE DROOPY ONE

TID-BITS

my upcoming food endeavors: roasted cheesy cauliflower and bacon ranch potato salad yummy :]

i love the southtowne movie theater the only people that work there are all the cutest little old people you have ever met on this planet who give you original tickets

 

they hold the door open after coming out of the movie. the most deliciously covered in gallons of butter popcorn! and they only have 2 movies! thats one more than the theater on main street!!

ANSWERS TO A PRAYER

i am a daughter of god and i am not afraid of that. its a lot of responsibility and sometimes i do not feel as if i deserve that name. but i am always striving to do my best everyday. i have learned how to lean on him and accept him when i do wrong. he's the only thing that makes me feel true happiness and i love him more and more with each passing day. i have done really stupid things before but all i know is that today i am happy and nothing can stop me.

Manti temple

God is the creator of everything we need to look around and appreciate all of our surroundings and remember it was all created in 7 days.. crazy. but he did it all for us. he did it all for you he even died for you. who else can you say has done the same? 

  driving to gunnison on a early sunday morning

GOD IS LOVE

WISH LIST

oh please oh please santa!!

FOODIE

for anyone who doesnt know by now i have become obsessed with cooking since i have moved out. i do it as often as i can. i look up new recipes and just do it. i was cooking a lot of different pastas and things so i decided that i wanted to go on a different path this last little while and went a little asian. for anyone that wants to try out their inner cook i would suggest to just buy a package of won ton wrappers and go to town! they are my new essential cooking tool you can do so much. here is what i have been up to.

so orange chicken is first everyone loved it except me. its not my favorite but chris was sick and thats what he asked for. 

then sausage cups... oh my gosh they were to die for!

pot stickers with onions mushrooms chalets ginger and much more. they were very yummy but a little too much sesame oil.

one of my new favorite things ever won tons with cream cheese clams water chestnuts and green onions.

so it has been a very fatning and delicious little while. thank goodness for the gym.

   

 oh and i made spaghetti [with sauce that i made from scratch with my mom] 

i really cant wait to cook for my own family.....

FROZEN

this is my SOS letter to the world. in case i haven't told you in the past i live in the dorms here at Snow College. so we dont have any control over the heat and air there.
its been freezing lately [for those of you that haven't been out of the house]
but so yeah the heat hasnt even been on this whole time! it wont be on until fall break...
so we close all the doors and turn on the oven to try and warm the common room as much as we can.
last night i slept with 2 sweat shirts and t sweat pants. 3 blankets.
it was hell. someone save me.

PLASTIC POOP

so its been a strange day i would have to admit. dont get me wrong it was a pretty great morning i originally love tuesdays because that means i only have 2 classes [institute being one] so then after that me tatum and sarah went lookin for jobs and just havin a girly time blastin the shania twain and lettin our hair down we went and seen some adorable horses if i can somehow get it on here i'll put a picture of my baby she was an angel ps i am now taking donations for a new camera.. its hell on earth not having one. we went to the mountain man store where we found a stray watermelon cantaloupe cross breed, chopped it open, with chucks permission, and then i got the quote of the day from him.

"hell no i dont want any of that! i just put in a dip why in gods name would i wanna ruin a great dip with that crap"

he's a bit volgure, its fine. but i sat in a cool one man camo igloo talkin to my spence and had a few funny laughs in there. i came home and waited for tatum so we could go to the gym. she said she would be back in an hour.... 3 hours later i woke up from a nap [dont worry i studied really hard before] no sign of tatum tot. well i was hungry and for some strange unidentified reason my hands opened up the freezer and came out with a STUPID choice of mac and cheese fake dinner... well yeah im in college so i ate it. dont ask why.

   

ps guess who is goin to see jason aldean again!

yup thats right feel free to be jealous

IM LUKE

and he is lorelai..

HAPPY DAYS

how was your weekend world?

was is good to you?

i had a pretty great weekend i will have to admit 

first off was feeling the love, well actually i was kinda depressed by it all because i attended 2 weddings. but they were cute so i got over it and was happy for everyone.

and then me and spence got together and i had the time of my life. he makes me very happy this one =]

i missed him.

also got to see jordan and had some laughs.

missed him too.

then i went to hobby lobby with mamma and we got some way fun craft things to do while we watched conference. and here is what they were.

 decorative veggie bottles because its way funner to make then buy

and some poms to make my dorm feel more homey. 

it was a good weekend i missed my family a lot and it was good to see everyone.

if ya'll havent noticed by now.. im kinda a baby.

i miss home so much.

only 7 months

LOVE DOCTOR

well so i have finally had one very embarrassing moment happen to me in college.

so this thursday, all off-campus dorms were required to attend this "making relationships matter" conference with the "love doctor".

well it just so happened that a half hour before this meeting i meet this pretty fine lad who i will remain anonymous due to the embarrassment. but he came along because he lives in our dorm too.

so we are talking and laughing for over an hour learning from this doctor about how to make relationships work and joking at the ironical humor in the situation that we were in and he leans forward and i start to whisper to tate when suddenly she says

"dude you have pizza in your teeth"!!

oh my goodness

i went red as a cherry and covered my mouth in severe embarrassment

he kept asking what was wrong but i couldn't stop shaking my head trying to not burst into humiliating laughter.

i turned to sarah bond as she helped me out 

i turned back to this confused boy and said.

i apparently have had pizza in my teeth for the last hour and a half and you have [politely] said nothing

thats when his face went a light shade of pink and said..

"well i figured that it would be less embarrassing for your friend to tell you, instead of someone you just met".

i want to crawl into a dark hole.

but then like the gentlemen he is he quickly added

"but dont worry i only seen it like 2 seconds before she told you"

so everyone take this story as a lesson and learn from it or you will end up like this acward chick.

    [ps i know this isnt a chick.. i was talking about me]

but dont worry he still stuck abound and we had an awesome night. =]

JAZZIES

someday i want to be in love like the old jazzie couple in ephraim.

THE GYM IS THAT WAY

i would just like everyone to know that i hate and i mean HATE working out in a public gym.

however i pulled my lazy chunky butt outta my comfort zone today and i went.

i felt so much better.

i found myself smiling the whole way home and then this clip popped into my cranium.

but i will admit when i first got on the machines i made myself look like a complete loser 99.9% of the time. i mean what kinda nerd doesnt know how to work the freakin bikes??

and thats when the really good clip popped up inside my brain stage.

i searched to find it everywhere(wasted way too much of my life) and i couldnt ever find it.

but if you are a gilmore girl true fan, you will recall the episode "valentines at the vinyard" where rory and lorelai go to the gym and cant figure out the machine "do you push it or pull it? climb it or slide down it" yeah.. i really wish i could have found that clip. oh well.

ps im asking for new running shoes for christmas

YOU KNOW YOU'VE THOUGHT ABOUT IT

yeah i know you have all considered this at sometime when you think about paying for daycare. i sure have..

MAYHEM

is it just me or are these the best commercials known to man and i just realized today that they are for insurance hence the meyhem i guess. ps dean winters is really attractive.

MY FUTURE

i've become one of those wedding freaks now and i am not ashmed of that fact.

this ring

these boots

those flowers

that dress (with Sleeves)

here at this temple

that yummy cake (almost)

the man of my dreams please..

GOOSEBUMPS

have ya'll noticed that the temp has been dropping?
i dont know what its quite like outside of ephraim, but here it is gettin very chilly!
so this can only mean one thing in my excited mind.
i woke up and instantly i thought HOLY FETCH ITS TIME FOR SOME FLIPPIN TIGHTS!!

oh man let me tell the world that in the last couple years i have learned a few fun secrtes that i am sure most girls know but for me im a late bloomer in that world and i have just discovered some things.

1. tights are super comfortable! who woulda thunk it?! but they are and its not like i wear skirts all the time but on occasions im feelin a little.. fat.. yes i said the f word. and i just dont feel like goin through the pain of jeans. but hmm its chilly and i cant show off my chunky legs in shorts so, solution throw on the tights! also its a great choice when you are headed off to church also not just for the cold but you also dont remember that dress bein quite that short. there ya go.

2.alright this one may not be mother friendly but yes get a couple thongs girls! i personally only have one (i dont have money to go and get more) but seriously they will save your life. like the other day i was in my night yoga class and i was goin into a deep downward dog and i hear "ok everyone really send those hips to the sky" so i did and lucky for me i can look between my legs and see the full mirror and i can see my grand pantie lines!! ah so im sure none of you want them either. i promise they arent just for naughty or skanky girls. its only gonna help you out in the fashion world.

3. do not i repeat DO NOT go to the bowling alley at ten o' clock at night and order the cheese fries. i dont care how many menstral craving you have dont do it!! you will only wake up in the morning and feel a billion times worse. starch hang overs and massive bloating are never your friends. i promise.

now i know that most of you probably know that i am not the girliest girl out there but i hope you will still take a little bit of this advice. it has helped me advance just slightly in that world.

oh and ps if you are like me and you dont just get PMS you get all out RAGE (raging. angry. girl. everyday.) dont answer your phone, text or call, if you have just woken up from your nap on an empty stomach. you may offend someone.

COOKIES AND ICE

i am very excited to actually have something semi cool to blog about!

the other day me chris and tate went to manti to eat ice cream and do some ice blocking down the manti temple. and in this process i crashed on the ground and layed looking up at this amazingly gorgeous creation i decided that i will be coming back someday and getting married there. its my new most favorite temple ever i mean.. how could it not be?

and dont worry no one got hurt during this adventure. it didnt last long the coppers showed.

on saturday me and tatum were craving something delicious

so emediatly i leaped at the opportunity to cook something.

her sister bradie had just put a recipe on her blog for peanut butter oreos

oh yeah. thats right.

they were heaven on earth let me tell ya!

we did not have any kind of measuring cups.

or a blender.

it was funny.

and finally.

i trieed once again to finish my book for my history report

dont worry though i finished yesterday :]

KETCHUP

its been a while since ive just wrote about some of the Ephraim adventures so lets play catch-up.

well i made homeade alfrado for the boys in pinetree.

and got a owee from my boot.

also found delicious pizza!

i stopped on the side of the road to get a picture of the loan lama.

where juan proceeded to break down..

darn lama..

i have learned how to save a few dollars using printable coupons.

well that is about it.  oh i did do something else but i will proceed with that later i havent got my pictures yet. but some friends aka spence charlie and jackson came up for the weekend and spent some time with us. we were boring. it was still good to see them. i love making stupid memories.

 

yeah the world has become this superficial..hey its entertainment yeah?